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Things autumn autonomously; the centre cannot hold;

Mere chaos is loosed upon the world,

The blood-dimmed tide is loosed, and everywhere

The ceremony of innocence is drowned…

—W. B. Yeats, "The Second Coming"

The houses are all gone under the sea.

The dancers are all gone nether the hill.

—T. S. Eliot, "Eastward Coker"

ONE

Ryan Perry did not know that something in him was cleaved. At thirty-four, he appeared to exist more physically fit than he had been at xx-four. His home gym was well equipped. A personal trainer came to his firm iii times a calendar week.

On that Wednesday morning in September, in his sleeping room, when he drew open the draperies and saw blue sky every bit polished as a plate, and the sea bluish with the celestial reflection, he wanted surf and sand more than than he wanted breakfast.

He went on-line, consulted a surfcast site, and called Samantha.

She must have glanced at the caller-ID readout, because she said, "Good morn, Winky."

She occasionally called him Winky considering on the afternoon that she met him, thirteen months previously, he had been afflicted with a stubborn case of myokymia, uncontrollable twitching of an eyelid.

Sometimes, when Ryan became and so obsessed with writing software that he went thirty-six hours without sleep, a sudden-onset tic in his right eye forced him to leave the keyboard and made him appear to exist blinking out a frantic distress indicate in Morse lawmaking.

In that myokymic moment, Samantha had come to his role to interview him for an article that she had been writing for Vanity Fair. For a moment, she had thought he was flirting with her—and flirting clumsily.

During that kickoff coming together, Ryan wanted to ask for a date, only he perceived in her a seriousness of purpose that would cause her to refuse him as long as she was writing about him. He chosen her merely afterwards he knew that she had delivered the article.

"When Vanity Fair appears, what if I've savaged you?" she had asked.

"You haven't."

"How practise yous know?"

"I don't deserve to be savaged, and you're a fair person."

"You don't know me well plenty to be certain of that."

"From your interviewing mode," he said, "I know yous're smart, clear-thinking, free of political dogma, and without envy. If I'm not safe with you, and then I'm safety nowhere except lonely in a room."

He had not sought to flatter her. He merely spoke his mind.

Having an ear for deception, Samantha recognized his sincerity.

Of the qualities that draw a brilliant woman to a human, truthfulness is equaled only by kindness, courage, and a sense of humor. She had accustomed his invitation to dinner, and the months since so had been the happiest of his life.

Now, on this Wednesday morning, he said, "Pumping six-footers, glassy and epic, sunshine that feels its way deep into your basic."

"I've got a deadline to meet."

"Y'all're too young for all this talk virtually death."

"Are you riding another train of manic insomnia?"

"Slept similar a infant. And I don't mean in a wet diaper."

"When you're slumber-deprived, you're treacherous on a lath."

"I may be radical, only never treacherous."

"Totally insane, like with the shark."

"That again. That was nothing."

"But a neat white."

"Well, the bastard bit a huge chunk out of my lath."

"And—what?—you were determined to go it dorsum?"

"I wiped out," Ryan said, "I'thou under the wave, in the murk, grabbin' for air, my hand closes around what I recall is the skeg."

The skeg, a fixed fin on the bottom of a surfboard, holds the stern of the board in the wave and allows the rider to steer.

What Ryan actually grabbed was the shark's dorsal fin.

Samantha said, "What kind of kamikaze rides a shark?"

"I wasn't riding. I was taken for a ride."

"He surfaced, tried to shake you off, you rode him back down."

"Afraid to allow go. Anyway, it lasted similar just twenty seconds."

"Indisposition makes about people sluggish. It makes yous hyper."

"I hibernated terminal night. I'm equally rested every bit a bear in leap."

She said, "In a circus once, I saw a deport riding a tricycle."

"What's that got to practise with anything?"

"Information technology was funnier than watching an idiot ride a shark."

"I'm Pooh Deport. I'm rested and cuddly. If a shark knocked on the door right now, asked me to go for a ride, I'd say no."

"I had nightmares virtually you wrestling that shark."

"Not wrestling. Information technology was more like ballet. Run across you at the place?"

"I'll never finish writing this book."

"Leave the estimator on when you go to bed each night. The elves volition end it for you. At the place?"

She sighed in happy resignation. "One-half an 60 minutes."

"Wear the carmine i," he said, and hung up.

The water would be warm, the day warmer. He wouldn't demand a moisture suit.

He pulled on a pair of baggies with a palm-tree motif.

His drove included a pair with a shark pattern. If he wore them, she would kick his ass. Figuratively speaking.

For subsequently, he took a change of clothes on a hanger, and a pair of loafers.

Of the 5 vehicles in his garage, the customized '51 Ford Woodie Wagon—anthracite-black with bird's-heart maple panels—seemed to exist best suited to the solar day. Already stowed in the dorsum, his board protruded past the lifted tailgate windows, skeg up.

At the end of the asphalt driveway, as he turned left into the street, he paused to look back at the firm: gracefully sloping roofs of cherry-red barrel tile, limestone-clad walls, statuary windows with panes of beveled glass refracting the sun every bit if they were jewels.

A maid in a well-baked white uniform opened a pair of second-floor balcony doors to air the chief sleeping accommodation.

One of the landscapers trimmed the jasmine vines that were espaliered on the walls flanking the carved-limestone surround at the main entrance.

In less than a decade, Ryan had gone from a cramped apartment in Anaheim to the hills of Newport Declension, high above the Pacific.

Samantha could take the day off on a whim considering she was a writer who, though struggling, could gear up her own hours. Ryan could take it off considering he was rich.

Quick wits and hard work had brought him from nothing to the pinnacle. Sometimes when he considered his origins from his electric current perch, the distance dizzied him.

As he drove out of the gate-guarded community and descended the hills toward Newport Harbor, where thousands of pleasure boats were docked and moored in the glimmering dominicus-gilded water, he placed a few business calls.

A twelvemonth previously, he had stepped down equally the chief executive officer of Be2Do, which he had built into the most successful social-networking site on the Cyberspace. As the principal stockholder, he remained on the lath of directors but declined to exist the chairman.

These days, he devoted himself largely to artistic development, envisioning and designing new services to be provided past the visitor. And he tried to persuade Samantha to ally him.

He knew that she loved him, however something constrained her from committing to matrimony. He suspected pride.

The shadow of his wealth was deep, and she did not want to be lost in it. Although she had not expressed this concern, he knew that she hoped to be able to count herself a success equally a writer, every bit a novelist, and then that she could enter the marriage as a creative—if not a fiscal—equal.
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br />   Ryan was patient. And persistent.

Telephone calls completed, he transitioned from Pacific Declension Highway by bridge to Balboa Peninsula, which separated the harbor from the ocean. Cruising toward the peninsula point, he listened to classic doo-wop, music younger than the Woodie Wagon but a quarter of a century older than he was.

He parked on a tree-lined street of charming homes and carried his board half a block to Newport's main beach.

The bounding main poured rhythmic thunder onto the shore.

She waited at "the identify," which was where they had commencement surfed together, midway between the harbor entrance and the pier.

Her higher up-garage apartment was a three-minute walk from hither. She had come with her board, a beach towel, and a small cooler.

Although he had asked her to wear the red bikini, Samantha wore yellow. He had hoped for the yellowish, simply if he had asked for it, she would have worn red or bluish, or dark-green.

She was as perfect as a mirage, blond hair and golden grade, a quiver of calorie-free, an alluring oasis on the wide slope of sun-seared sand.

"What're those sandals?" she asked.

"Stylin', huh?"

"Are they fabricated from sometime tires?"

"Yeah. But they're premium gear."

"Did you as well purchase a lid fabricated from a hubcap?"

"Y'all don't like these?"

"If you accept a blowout, does the auto club bring you a new shoe?"

Kick off the sandals, he said, "Well, I like them."

"How often do they need to be aligned and counterbalanced?"

Soft and hot, the sand shifted underfoot, but and so was compacted and cool where the purling surf worked information technology like a screed.

As they waded into the sea, he said, "I'll ditch the sandals if next time yous'll clothing the cherry bikini."

"You actually wanted this yellow one."

He repressed his surprise at her perspicacity. "And then why would I ask for the ruby?"

"Because you only think you lot tin read me."

"But I'thousand an open book, huh?"

"Winky, compared to you, Dr. Seuss's simplest tale is equally complex as Dostoyevsky."

They launched their boards and, prone upon them, paddled out toward the break.

Raising his voice above the swash of the surf, he called to her: "Was that Seuss thing an insult?"

Her argent laughter stirred in Ryan memories of mermaid tales awash with the mysteries of the deep.

She said, "Not an insult, sweetie. That was a thirteen-word buss."

Ryan did not carp to recall and count her words from Winky to Dostoyevsky. Samantha noticed everything, forgot nothing, and was able to recall entire conversations that had occurred months previously.

Sometimes he institute her as daunting as she was appealing, which seemed to be a practiced thing. Samantha would never be predictable or boring.

The consistently spaced waves came like boxcars, four or five at a fourth dimension. Betwixt these sets were periods of relative calm.

While the bounding main was slacking, Ryan and Samantha paddled out to the lineup. There, they straddled their boards and watched the first cracking of a new set curl toward the break.

From this more intimate perspective, the sea was not as placid and blue as information technology had appeared from his business firm in the hills, but every bit dark as jade and challenging. The budgeted not bad might have been the arching back of some scaly leviathan, larger than a m sharks, born in the deep but rising now to feed upon the sunlit world.

Sam looked at Ryan and grinned. The dominicus searched her eyes and revealed in them the blueish of heaven, the green of sea, the delight of being in harmony with millions of tons of h2o pushed shoreward past storms 3 thousand miles abroad and past the moon now looming on the dark side of the globe.

Sam caught the second swell: on two knees, i knee, at present continuing, swift and clean, away. She rode the crest, then did a floater off the curling lip.

As she slid out of view, down the face up of the wave, Ryan thought that the breaker—much bigger than anything in previous sets—had the size and the energy to hollow out and put her in a tube. Good as it gets, Sam would ride it out every bit smoothly as oil surging through a pipeline.

Ryan looked seaward, timing the next swell, eager to rise and walk the board.

Something happened to his heart. Already quick with anticipation of the ride, the beat suddenly accelerated and began to pound with a force more suited to a moment of high terror than to one of pleasant excitement.

He could feel his pulse throbbing in his ankles, wrists, throat, temples. The tide of blood within his arteries seemed to crescendo in sympathy with the body of water that swelled toward him, nether him.

The sibilant voice of the h2o became insistent, sinister.

Clutching the board, abandoning the attempt to rise and ride, Ryan saw the day dim, losing effulgence at the periphery. Along the horizon, the heaven remained articulate notwithstanding faded to gray.

Inky clouds spread through the jade sea, as though the Pacific would soon be as blackness in the morn light equally information technology was on any moonless night.

He was breathing fast and shallow. The very atmosphere seemed to exist irresolute, as if half the oxygen content had been bled out of it, perhaps explaining the graying of the sky.

Never previously had he been agape of the sea. He was afraid of it now.

The h2o rose as though with conscious intention, with malice. Clinging to his board, Ryan slid down the hunchbacked swell into the wide trough between waves.

Irrationally, he worried that the trough would become a trench, the trench a vortex. He feared that he would be whirled down into drowning depths.

The board wallowed, bobbed, and Ryan nearly rolled off. His strength had left him. His grip had grown weak, every bit tremulous as that of an quondam man.

Something bristled in the water, alarming him.

When he realized that those spiky forms were neither shark fins nor grasping tentacles, simply were the conceptacles of a knotted mass of seaweed, he was non relieved. If a shark were to appear now, Ryan would be at the mercy of it, unable to evade it or resist.

TWO

As suddenly as the set on came, it passed. Ryan'southward storming heart quieted. Bluish reclaimed the graying sky. The encroaching darkness in the water receded. His force returned to him.

He did not realize how long the episode had lasted until he saw that Samantha had ridden her wave to shore and, in the relative calm betwixt sets, had paddled out to him once more.

As she came closer, the business organisation that creased her brow was also axiomatic in her voice: "Ryan?"

"Merely enjoying the moment," he lied, remaining prone on his board. "I'll catch one in the next set."

"Since when are you a mallard?" she asked, by which she meant that he was floating around in the lineup like a duck, like 1 of those gutless wannabes who soaked all day in the swells simply beyond the suspension signal and called it surfing.

"The last 2 in that prepare were bigger," he said. "I have a hunch the next batch might exist double overhead, worth waiting for."

Sam straddled her board and looked out to sea, scanning for the first bully of the new set.

If Ryan read her correctly, she sensed that he was shining her on, and she wondered why.

With his heart steady and his strength recovered, he stopped hugging the board, straddled information technology, getting ready.

Waiting for the next moving ridge train, he told himself that he had not experienced a physical seizure, but instead merely an anxiety attack. At self-charade, he was as skilled equally anyone.

He had no reason to be anxious. His life was sweet, buttered, and sliced for like shooting fish in a barrel consumption.

Focused on far water, Samantha said, "Winky."

"I see it."

The sea rose to the morning lord's day, dark jade and silver, a groovy shoulder of h2o shrugging upwardly and rolling smoothly toward the break.

Ryan smelled brine, smelled the iodine of bleeding seaweed, and tasted salt.

"Epic," Sam chosen out, sizing the neat.

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sp; "Monster," he agreed.

Instead of rise into a command position, she left the moving ridge to him, her butt on the board, her feet in the h2o, allurement for sharks.

A squadron of gulls streaked landward, shrieking every bit if to warn those on shore that a behemoth was coming to blast sand castles and swamp picnic hampers.

As the moment of commitment neared, anticipation rose in Ryan, concern that the thrill of the ride might trigger another…episode.

He paddled to catch the wave, got to his feet on the pivot point, arms reaching for balance, fingers spread, palms downwards, and he caught the break, a perfect peeler that didn't section on him but instead poured pavement equally slick as ice. The moving moving ridge displaced air, and a cool wind rose up the curved wall, pressing against his flattened palms.

Then he was in a tube, a glasshouse, behind the curtain of the breaking wave, shooting the curl, and his anticipation flare-up like a bubble and was no more than.

Using every fox to goose momentum, he emerged from the tube before it collapsed, into the sparkle of dominicus on water filigreed with foam. The day was so existent, and then right. He admonished himself, No fear, which was the simply way to alive.

All morning time, into the afternoon, the swells were monoliths. The offshore breeze strengthened, blowing liquid smoke off the lips of the waves.

The beach blanket was not a identify to tan. Information technology was for rehab, for massaging the quivers out of overtaxed muscles, for draining sinuses flooded with seawater, for combing $.25 of kelp and crusted common salt out of your pilus, for psyching each other into the next session.

Usually, Ryan would want to stay until late afternoon, when the offshore breeze died and the waves stopped hollowing out, when the yearning for eternity—which the sea represented—became a yearning for burritos and tacos.

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